Cool
This summer, I learned cool.
I learned it because I hung with someone different from me,
Someone whose father’s job was playing lottery,
Someone who grew up in SoCal but took themselves to
Disneyland when they were nineteen
because they were tired of seeing happiness via widescreen,
Someone who looked at me in the Safeway parking lot and
asked, “You’re a virgin?”
My response: “Yes. That surprise you?”
This summer, I learned my family is cool,
Cool because we shingled our own roof and had neighbors stopping
by with lemonade,
Cool because we all attend my sister’s bedroom floor tea
parties,
Cool because we had a masquerade while we were camping,
Cool because us kids would play baseball in the backyard—
Almost enough of us to play, but not quite,
so we’d just use the person on second when we ran out of
batters.
I learned that cool isn’t Fonzie like my mom said it is,
And, second-hand from someone who was the stereotype of
cool,
I also learned cool isn’t getting drunk and having a
one-night stand,
And threesomes aren’t all they’re cracked up to be.
My professor told me he’s never seen a family that is a team,
That faces life like the Avengers upholding each other’s
dreams.
It’s sad that the part of my story that I thought was cliché
Is the part that makes it interesting and intriguing and
cool—
It’s that sister who’s moved out and Skypes the younger for
her birthday.
They have a Play-Doh sculpting competition judged by Mom.
I learned that cool is knowing the rules to Dominion,
Watching meteor showers while lying on a backyard
trampoline,
Wearing a friendship bracelet made by my sister,
Knowing how to roast a marshmallow so it looks like the
sunset,
And having the patience to stand up to jerks
Coupled with the self-control to not lash back.
And what’s cool about it all isn’t the glamour or the glory
or the gold,
Because that stuff isn’t there.
What’s cool is that the life I was born living
is the one a broken Cinderella somewhere is wishing for,
thinking it’s impossible.
But I’m here to tell you it is possible.
That’s not to say we have it all, though,
Because we don’t.
I borrowed my prom dress,
I used fourth-hand skis,
I spent summers doing work outside,
I wore Wal-Mart to a high school that shopped at designer
stores,
Every weekend, I helped take care of my great-grandmother
from Germany,
And Ben Franklin became my hero because he thought up the lending
library.
This summer I learned that Dorothy was right when she said
there’s no place like home,
when she abandoned those ruby shoes
And all the fame from Emerald City.
I learned she was right because this summer, I learned about
cool.
And it’s family and home and kickin’ it old school.
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